Wednesday, July 24, 2013

A beautiful emotional day

I've said it before... I stopped really expressing my thoughts on my blog. I keep it light and simple for the most part.  I try not to get too 'deep' anymore. Maybe I don't know what to really say sometimes or maybe a little fear of being judged. Or maybe it's just hard to be so open with personal issues. 

Anyway, today I'm emotional and I'm just going to write from the heart. My father passed away from liver disease and my aunt has been struggling with it now for years.  Yesterday we heard good news about a donor for her.(the second time this year) The family prayed and she was at the hospital with her family prepping this big surgery. I spoke to her and my cousin briefly but I felt the emotions through the phone. The hope, the fear the uncertainty of it all. I went to bed praying for my aunt. I woke up and called my mom right away. The surgery didn't happen. I don't know the details, but I do know my family is heart broken. 

I trust in God. And I trust that everything happens for a reason. 

(Google photo credit) 

I'm praying for the strength of my family. 

Today baby k is still stuffy and we were going to stay home but I thought a little drive would be good. So we went down to the city to visit my dad in the cemetery. Baby k is so young but I feel he understands why we go there. He knows that's 'Nonno' he says it, he plays and blows kisses. I want him to know that my dad meant a lot to me and even though he was far from perfect he was my dad and always always loved us. I have much more good memories with him than bad... and thats what matters. And I know that he is always here for me, even though he isn't here. He was never a candidate for a donor. He never made the list. He passed away at 46. 

So today we just spent sometime asking him to watch over us and pray with us. 

Told you I'm having an emotional day ;)

We ended our morning going to our favorite car wash haha 

and picking up lunch in our old neighborhood.  

It was a beautiful morning. 


  1. Sending you lots of love and hugs. My prayers are with you and your family. Some days we just need our dad No matter where they are.

  2. Praying for your family

  3. Im so sorry I'm so late in replying. Thinking of your family.