Sleep training and Christmas shopping

This weekend my husband started sleep training without me. Friday night I went out with the girls for nice evening to catch up. My husband let baby K cry it out to sleep. He went in every 5 minutes to tell him to sleep and within 30 minutes he fell asleep. He screamed and threw his head back slamming it against the crib over and over (eek) but eventually stopped and fell asleep. We did it again yesterday and it took 17 minutes with less crying. Hoping tonight it's less! We are working on it!

I also spent the weekend doing some Christmas shopping. I got his daycare teachers all a gift and a little gift for each of his little friends in his class.

I'm not even close to being finished Christmas shopping. But we love last minute shopping so we won't be done until Christmas eve!!

Did you Christmas shop this weekend!?

Night in the ER with baby boy

Little man has been sick with a fever and cough all week!

Yesterday his temp went back up and his breathing was pretty heavy. His nose was flaring and he was breathing fast as he was struggling to breathe ;(

I called telehealth (lucky to have this here). Talked to a nurse and with telling them all the symptoms they told us to go to the ER. So we headed down to sick kids to get checked out. The nurses and doctors were awesome. They gave him a ventilator mask (not sure what it's called) and they monitored his breathing. They told us he is fighting a virus and the worst of it is day 3-5 which we are at.

Kristian was so good at the hospital watching them take his temp and listen to his chest.

We got home at 4am. All 3 of us were pooped!

Ugh! the hardest thing is seeing your little one sick and not being able to do anything but try and comfort them. There were a lot of parents with sick kids last night, some very serious ;( He is doing better today and I'm praying for all the little kiddies fighting an illness ;( my heart aches for the families.

Zombiemoms taken to the next level

Hi, I'm tired... No wait... Exhausted! I can't tell you how my eyes are still even open right now.

Mr K has been sick with a cold, ear infection now a cough since he started daycare last month.

Last night was the worst. He cried ALL night. He slept only a couple of hours and not in a row. We were up all night! I stayed home with him today to bring him to the doctor. He has a bad cough and he prescribed a puffer.

Kristian is soo tired too. Last night was too much even for him (mr hates sleep)

He hasn't been eating to well either the past 2 days ;( which makes me worry he will drop some weight.

Ahh the stresses of a mom!!! And work? I don't even want to talk about it. But the last 2 days I was located Downtown in the mall. Love DT and the mall ha! but not the drive when you live in the suburbs ;) and not when daycare calls that baby has a fever and getting to him takes over an hour.

Praying my little guy gets over this bug and gets a break from it all too!!!

Things that made me smile this weekend

Family
Christmas Decor
And food haha! ;)

Overwhelmed working mom

My take on being a working mom....

It's HARD!!!!!!!!! HARD HARD HARD I actually feel like I'm being punished for all the bad things I ever done in my life right now haha I am not kidding.

I'm exhausted. How do you even get to enjoy life and your sweet growing baby when as soon as you walk in the door from being at work all day it's go go go!  cooking dinner, eating, bathing the baby, bathing yourself, cleaning up (which I hardly do! My house is a disaster) getting everything ready for the next day.... and trying to fit in life in between even relaxing time, tv time forget that! My little one doesn't have the best sleep patterns. Going into work sleep deprived makes a very grumpy me. Then I look at our own schedules, and it's never the same 2 days in a row, I don't blame him for the sleep patterns he has, I blame us for not having a consistent life or routine. 

I've been trying to let go... let go of having a messy house, who cares right. Let go of the laundry piled up, clean clothes in baskets for weeks... not a big deal. Another thing that is hard to get control of is eating healthy... I'm trying hard to keep it going for baby K, I don't want him eating junk food but life is busy and the Mcdonalds drive through for nuggets is convenient some nights :( And me, I won't even go there! I think I've been eating the worst I ever have! I don't have the time to even think about what I want for lunch the next day when I can barely see straight or have the time. And the stress of my job is on high the past couple weeks, going for interviews not knowing what the outcome will be. DH has a demanding job too so both our stress levels have been high. It's not fun.

I have a new respect for moms... we do it all... Men, haven't got a CLUE!

I wrote a post on the happiness project last week. But I can't even imagine how to change anything in my life right now when I'm struggling to get through my day and my main focus above all is to spend whatever time I have playing and teaching my son a few things, before I blink my eyes and he's 20! Sigh!

I don't usually use my blog to vent all my problems (only when I get totally overwhelmed which has been a lot this year) I try to keep it light and focused on the more positive aspects of our life... but right now... I'm not that positive. I do not see the light at the end of the tunnel. I'm feeling exhausted, guilty, frustrated, hopeless. If I could just cry all day I would! Trying to focus on the good things in my life like watching baby K play at daycare. He has so much fun. I know he is happy and healthy and that is the most important thing. It's been 3 weeks and I still do not have a grasp of being a working mom at all, and I miss my baby boy so much every day :(


Does your day to day get overwhelming some times?

Letter to Santa and Walking all over!

Little K is walking a lot! A couple weeks before his birthday he took 2 steps and and every week since it's been more and more. Now he is walking all over the house! Walking more than crawling. He is 13 months and growing and learning soo much!

Today at daycare he wrote a letter to Santa and added his little painting on the letter too. How cute!!!

This weekend will be December and Christmas is getting close!!! I have not started any gift shopping at all! And with all the up coming events, I'll have to find time! Chop chop!

Have you started your Christmas shopping yet?

Santa Parade and Christmas Decor

This weekend was all about getting ready for Christmas!

We started the house decor but we are not finished just yet! We have to decorate the tree still! We bought a Fraser Fir Tree and it smells amazing!

I also ordered our Christmas cards and hopefully I can mail them out next week!

Yesterday night we stayed in decorating and playing Christmas music. We also baked apple pie. It was very festive here haha!
Today we went to the city's Santa Parade! It was sooo cold but we were all bundled up and had a great afternoon.

Now that baby K is a year older Christmas is even more fun. I'm excited to share my traditions with him every year. 

Hope you all had a great weekend! 

Learning to walk! Big boy!

My little guy is learning to walk! Last month he started with only 2 steps and every week he adds a few more! Yesterday he took 8-10 steps before falling and crawling haha.

These days he is soo adorable copying everything we do. The cutest thing is when we tell him to close his eyes and he will squeeze them shut and laugh.

We were home the beginning of the week because he is sick with a ear infection. He is doing much better. Yesterday when I dropped him off he kissed me and said bye. The cutest is when I pick him up, right away he says bye to his friends haha it always cracks me up!

Today was bring your favorite toy to daycare so he brought his dancing Mickey! Haha! I was the only mom that remembered. Gold star for me! Ha!

He is getting to be such a big boy!!! Where is the time going!!! Where is my baby!!!

A year on hold... what goals?

I'm not sure if any other mom feels the same sometimes, but I feel like my life has been on hold since little one arrived. Of course now with my beautiful son in our lives things have changed, the first year especially takes your everything as you are taking care of this new little person, learning too and enjoying every moment. I always said that my little one comes first no matter what! But I do see that we need some balance. I read many blogs and I see the mom's that seem to have it all together and I think, how!!! Some days I feel stuck and there's so much to do that I do nothing at all ha!

Last night I was reading my blog profile and I didn't even recognize my own writing haha! I use to do that?... and that?.. oh ya! I totally forgot who I was before I became a mom! I want baby K to see that side of me too! Not just being his mommy part! :)

So here I am trying to find that balance! Getting back to my goals. Weight loss goals, travel goals, self improvement goals, family goals, dream goals! This is my blog... Growing towards a dream! And this year of learning to be a mom (which is life learning ha!) is all part of growing towards my dreams too!

My friend over at That Extra 20 Pounds blogged about the Happiness Project. So I decided to buy the book last night on my ipad :) and I can't wait to get started!

My goal this month is to start slowly with balancing all areas in my life.

How do you balance it all?

It's been kookoo for cocoa puffs around here

Haha I always say that! I Really do feel like I'm kookoo these days.

My sweet little guy is still sick ;( his ear infection isn't gone yet, and after the first round of antibiotics I thought he would be better, then a week went by and he seemed to be getting worse!

He had a fever all day yesterday and I decided to work from home today and bring him to the doctor. His ear infection is back or never left and he is now on his second round of antibiotics.

I'll work from home tomorrow too. I want him back to his fun little self again!!!

Trying to find work life balance is so hard with a little one. Especially these days when they are sick and need you.
It's sooo hard! I can't send him to daycare like this. He needs all day cuddles!!!