Something new!

Ok, maybe I'm just luggn behind but I just read something soo amazing on a blogger friends blog! Nycgirlatheart.com posted a couple days ago about how to blog by email! So I'm trying that now! Hope it works! Now I can post from anywhere without my computer! I feel like I just learned Internet exists haha! Thanks for posting the steps NYC girl!!

Happy blogging!!

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RollerBlading workout!

This week I've been doing pretty good so far.
My lunches are mostly salads and I'm bringing plenty of fruit and veggies as snacks. Dinner is hard tho! With being so busy during the week and with the weather being soo nice (well ok it's been killer hot) But it's so hard to stay in and cook! Husband and I love being out in the summer. We want to always be out there trying new restaurants/patio's and cafe's. Summer is just so much fun!

BUT my scale is not looking good! I gained some weight over the last couple months and now this has me even farther away from my original weight loss goal.

I do however want to keep it a healthy and steady weight loss so I will break down my goals by 3 month increments. Goal #1- 10lbs in 3 months.


Yesterday was day 1 of my new activity to help with my weight loss. Rollerblading!


My Sister is really good on these things!
She was guiding me and giving me tips. I did really well for my first time in like 10 years! I didn't fall at all either!

Tonight I have a lot of emails and office stuff to catch up on but I'll try and squeeze in a workout tonight too!

Time to get back on track!

This weekend I was feeling a little under the weather, just down and not like myself. We went out for my brothers birthday last night... I had originally said no to the event, but I knew I needed to get myself out and glad I did, we had a great time :)

We went to Copacabana Brazilian Steak House. I ate enough meat to last me a month! Hah!

The last couple of weeks have really been up and down. Last week we ended up eating out a lot! I think I tried every culture of food possible in a week. Chinese/Japanese/Italian/Brazilian/Middle eastern/Korean/Thai Yikes!
And my scale shows it!
My BMI is currently at OVERWEIGHT! At 27.5

• Normal weight = 18.5–24.9
• Overweight = 25–29.9
• Obesity = BMI of 30 or greater

My new goal is to get at least at the higher bmi of the Normal weight 24.9 which means I need to drop 15lbs!

So this week I'm getting back on track!
Back to working out and eating healthy!

New Goals:
*1500 Calories/day
* Tracking calories on Iphone "my fitness pal app"
*Drink lots of water everyday! A MUST!
* 3 bite rule on sweets
* Tuesday RollerBlading
* Wednesday, Thursday and Sunday basement work out: Ab Lounge, Gazelle and workout DVD's
* No fast food! (no burgers, no fries, no pop!)
*More fruits and Veggies as daily snacks.

Hope you all had a good weekend. Happy July 4 to my American friends! :)

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On a side note, We have been letting Zoe out on a leash in the backyard...
And I think she got stung by a bee! Look at her swollen paw! :(

Happy Canada Day!

Today was Canada Day! So we went out and enjoyed it!
Just 15 minutes from our house in the township of King we found a nature trail! It was a beautiful sunny day and we spent about 2 hours here this morning :)

At one point we got lost and used our google maps haha! We were ok and found our way.
The trail is really meant for Bikes I think... There were many cyclist on the trails, we had to jump out of the way a couple times.
Exhausted!

Just down the street from the trail is Pine Orchard apple farm. After our long and tiring hike we went there to grab a bite. It is soo nice here. I absolutely love the peace and tranquility of being North of the city.

And I couldn't be at a apple farm without eating a apple something, so I had a apple turnover :)... I really need to get back on track soon!
Apples are growing! It's soo pretty here. If you live in Toronto, you definitely need to check out Pine orchard farms. It's about 40 mins from Toronto. They have apple picking too beginning the end of August. You'll see meee there for sure!

Tonight we planned to go for a walk to get a closer view of the fireworks, but after a long day we both were pretty much pooped! So we brought out some chairs, drinks and popcorn and watched the fireworks from our porch :)



Hope all my fellow Canadians had a great day off!

Back to work for me tomorrow :(

When Life Hands You Lemons...

....Make Lemonade!

Today I went back to work :( I was tired and mopey and started to feel down throughout the day. BUT when I got back to thinking of the summer days ahead and my new goals I started to get excited.

Tomorrow is a holiday and a day off for us Canada Day :)

Tonight we went to dinner to one of my favorite Italian restaurants. It's called Marcello's Pizzeria. In our old neighborhood in Toronto there was a Marcello's right around the corner, and here in our new neighborhood we have one around the corner as well!

I had Linguine con gamberi. (linguine with shrimp)

A spoon to twirl the linguine to a perfect bite is needed!

And this place has one of the BEST Tiramisu's I have ever had! YUM!
After dinner we went shopping for my new hobby that I'll be taking up. HA! I use to roller blade a lot when I was younger, I think it's been about 10 years! But I always loved it! I hope it's like riding a bike and I can get the hang back quick.


I bought gear just in case!
Can't wait to try them out outside!


HAPPY CANADA DAY!

A walk in nature

Tonight I went down to the city. My sister and I went for a walk in High Park. We walked for about an hour and a half. It was a great work out. I wore my easytones and I just know I will feel it tomorrow.

This little guy joined us for a little while, following us around until we got pretty freaked out and ran away from it ha!


It was such a beautiful night for a walk too.

I decided to really revamp my workouts this summer and will be getting into it next week. I'll blog about it when I come up with my new schedule. I also decided to buy ROLLER BLADES! Yippy! I'm getting them this weekend. I need to focus my attention on other things or I will make myself crazy... and focusing on exercise will help in more ways than one! :)

Visit to the OB update

This morning I went to my OB to get checked out and make sure all was ok. I also had a million questions for him too. OB offices are so busy! Wow! Lots of preggo's out there. As I was waiting outside the room I heard another lady's baby heart beat, it was nice.

When I went in the doctor opened my file and saw that last weeks ultrasounds shows a complete miscarriage, that means everything was expelled and no DNC is required. He suggested I continue taking Materna and wait 3 full cycles if I decide to try again.

I asked questions about why etc...and the doctor just said that it is something that is really unknown and miscarriages can just happen. He said they are very common (which I still think is so strange!) He had 4 women this morning that all had one. 4 in one morning, I don't know about this, the numbers seem soo high to me.

He also said that there still is a 25% chance of miscarrying again but looking at that with the glass half full that's 75% chance I won't!

I don't really know how to feel about it all.

Tomorrow I'm going back to work. Maybe I'm grumpy mostly about that :) BUT we do have Thursday off for Canada day so I'm only working Wednesday and Friday.. not bad at all.

Family makes life beautiful

Today I spent the day with my lovely sister. It was filled with ice cream and fruits and cupcakes and chicken and french fries ha!

My sister has really been there for me the past 2 weeks. I am sooo grateful to have her in my life. She called me everyday to check up on me and see how I was feeling, she came to visit me so many times when I was on bed rest bringing me gifts each time (I know, she rocks) She was right by my side without any hesitation. I don't know how I will repay her...

We had a great day. We drove around the city. Visited my grandparents and went window shopping in the Junction. (a part of town)


My Grandparents made me eat these HUGE chicken wings! I get the "food always makes you feel better" from my grandparents, they see food as the cure for all things. Eat, Eat you'll feel better! Not a good thing for my scale. (another topic I will hit this week) My grandparents are so cute. They hugged and kissed me when they saw me. They asked how I was feeling and told me not to worry about anything. They gave me the reassurance that everything will be ok, you'll see. My grandfather said to listen to him because he is wise and he knows :) I just love them so much.

Then we headed to my mom's house my sister needed to get some baking done for her charity so I helped too.

I also helped eat some of them too.

I had a great day out with my sister. The one thing with my family is that we always get closer in the hard times. When someone is down we will all be around to cheer each other up and help in any way that we can. I'm glad that I never need to go through the hard times alone, it gives me strength to move forward knowing I have so many loving friends, family and husband.

Now I'm home and going to spend the rest of the evening in my husbands arms. Together we are growing stronger, he is truly my rock.

Hope you all had a great weekend.

Thank you

Thank you sooo much for all the sweet and comforting comments. I am so grateful for everyone in my life and so happy that I have my blog to express myself. :)

Yesterday I had to clear my head so my sister came over and we went to Homesense. Word art always makes me feel better. I picked up these in the clearance section. (I'm actually running out of space in my house but I love word art!.)




Then I was looking for a plaque with the Serenity prayer but couldn't find one. But one of my cousins was at the mall today and found me this. Made my day! :)
Looking forward to a calm weekend home.

Sad news

God grant me the SERENITY
to accept the things I cannot change;
COURAGE to change the things I can;
and WISDOM to know the difference.

I received my results yesterday... And It's confirmed that I had a miscarriage.

I guess I knew this was happening ever since the first day I saw the spotting. Many people were comforting me telling me their stories of having pregnancy complications and everything turning out ok. It comforted me... But the first day of spotting, I just knew it wasn't going to be ok.

The first day of spotting I noticed that all the feelings I had the couple weeks before suddenly disappeared! Food aversions, gone. Breast tenderness, gone. Mood swings, gone. Tiredness, gone. I stopped feeling pregnant. This spotting started at week 6. When I started with the cramping last Friday and went to the ER I still felt uneasy even though they said that the heart beat was there and everything was ok. I was happy and grateful but something inside didn't feel right.

I kept thinking of Dr #1 saying HCG levels VERY low for 7 weeks. DR #2 saying my dates are a little off, baby is at 6 weeks not 7. (I knew for a fact that I was 7 weeks, which made me think that at 6 weeks my spotting begun and my baby stopped growing)

Sunday and Monday I had the most pain I have ever felt, menstrual cramps x 100 with increased bleeding ... I knew what was happening, but a part of me was holding on to all the stories that women go through this early on and everything will be ok.

Wednesday I had my ultrasound and yesterday the doctor called and said..... the baby was gone.
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I know I will be ok. I do consider myself a strong person. I have been through a lot growing up and lost many people I loved in my life... this almost seemed normal to experience the feelings of loss again. But it's different... I have overwhelming emotions and a little confused. This was the first time ever being pregnant and for such a short time. I feel like I'm a little foggy... almost as if I'm not sure of who I am anymore, or who I was or who I am suppose to go on to be.... I was pregnant and now I'm not. I feel like everything is just still.

I also have the other side of me that is very logical and understand that many first pregnancies have a 20% to 30% percentage of miscarriage. And I know many women that have gone through this same experience and went on to have beautiful babies. And I also understand that a loss this early in the stage is must easier to deal with than further along. My heart goes out to all women that had to experience such loss.

I just feel so sad because it felt like such a blessing and now it went away...

I promise I won't sound so sad tomorrow.

Thank you for all your support and thank you for allowing me to share my story with you. Thank you for also sharing your stories with me. I have many strong women that surround me. Yesterday some family came to visit and they all shared their experiences. My mom lost a baby when she was 4 months pregnant and she shared how hard that that was to deal with. I also was reconnected with a childhood friend that went through a miscarriage last month as well, she was so supportive and shared her experience with me and helped me through mine. I'm grateful for all the wonderful people that surround me.