Ahh Finally Friday!

It's Friday night and I'm already in bed. I skipped out on a night out with the moms of suburbia tonight. I was looking forward to finally meeting them all, since we have been here at our new home for almost 6 months. However I bailed, I have not been in a social mood at all.

*In bed at 8pm, beats my falling asleep at 6pm twice this week.

*My job is extremely hard and sooo much work it's draining everything I've got.

* I only cooked at home once this week, but did eat wraps everyday for lunch.

*My appetite has not really been around this week, I've been sluggish and all I want to do is stay in bed after work.

*I have horrible tension headaches EVERYDAY! Omg why GOD WHY!!

* I haven't caught up on any of my books...really I read documents all day I can't possibly pick up anything else to read my eyes are tired! I'm so behind on my fav blogs too ;(

*My house is a mess, bills are being neglected and poor Zoe has not been getting my attention

*My weight loss goals have totally been scrapped this week and not sure if I should do my weigh in Saturday. hmm

*I'm really hoping my bad mood passes, I miss smiling and laughing and my life! ( I know dramatic, but that's how I'm feeling. I've never been good under stress...It's obvious, I crumble)

But... It's the weekend and I'm grateful for that!

Have a good weekend ;)

Cool new work bag ;)

As I mentioned before I'm going through a yucky learning curve at work. Since I usually get overwhelmed and tend to freak out husband is here to help me out. So whatever I do not understand I bring home and he helps me (I feel like I'm back in school!) Well for the past 2 weeks I've been lugging around a brief case to bring my notes back and forth. It was a hand held one, and I would struggle holding that and a coffee and trying to go through revolving doors without touching it with my hands because of GERMS! hahah! So I went out and bought a shoulder bag! It's light and comfy! Not too big, but a perfect size to carry my notes in, and my lunch!

Saturday I will be doing my weigh in. Although I have been eating healthier and snacking healthier, my jeans are feeling a little snug... hmm I'm a little worried!! lets hope I did not gain any weight!!! GRRR ! Today I have a bag of almonds to snack throughout my day :)

Happy Friday!! :)

Weekly Goals

Before I talk about my weekly goals, I wanted to mention that Zoe is fully over her little flu she had Sunday. She is back to herself again!

Today was my first full day at work and boy did it feel LONG! Everyone was very friendly and my day went pretty smooth. However I was pretty tense and I actually couldn't eat all day because my tummy was in knots, but no worries I came home and ate a yummy dinner :)

Zoe was sooo happpy to see me when I came home today. Nothing like the loving welcoming when entering the door after a long day! :)

I know its only Tuesday but my goals are going pretty well. I made yummy dinners yesterday and today and everyday for dinner this week!

(Beef stir fry with onions and mushrooms with a tortilla and spinach salad)

Oven baked pork chops with sweet potato fries , egg roll and spinach salad (I needed my carbs today ;)

My goals for the week are the following:
1. NO FAST FOOD!!!
2. Healthy home cooking all week. :)
3. Limit sweets
4. 2 days a week Jogging
5. Wear pedometer to work daily to track new daily steps.

Keeping goals simple this week ;)

I'm sooo tired this evening so hitting bed early!

My first day :)

Today was my first day of my new job, sorta. It was only orientation and only half a day whoohoo! My full days start tomorrow so I will let you know how that goes!

Since I had the afternoon off I made sure to get my groceries done today so I have enough food for the week so I won't have to eat out!

I bought lots of fruits and snacks to bring to work.

I've been so busy today trying to run as many errands as I can (Oh I will miss my days off!)

Zoe was really sick yesterday and I was really worried. She was vomiting all day and didn't eat or drink or use her litter box. Today she seems a little better, she drank some water and is walking around more. I was going to bring her to the vet but I will wait a couple more days and see if it passes. It may be a big hair ball upsetting her tummy or maybe she ate something around the house that she should not have. (I did see a few pumpkin seeds I baked out of the bowl, she may have picked some out and ate one :( poor girl she is miserable!

I have lots to do today and I will be posting another post later on... why?... because I got another award! yippy! But I want to post that one on it's own ;)

Hope you are all having a great Monday!!! :)

A gift for me ;)

I got a little netbook! Husband and I went to get me a little gift for starting my new job on Monday. :) We found a great sale at Futureshop and now I can pop my netbook in my purse if I need to ahah! Very excited!

Since I have been off work for a year, my closest shows that "work" attire is needed, I don't think my comfy sweaters and tights or worn out jeans will cut it ahha! So this weekend I will be on the look out for some new key pieces of clothing needed.



It's the Eve of Halloween whoooooo! And we just carved our pumpkins (I am not that skilled ha!)and we are all ready for Halloween tomorrow night! I also baked the pumpkin seeds with a little salt for seasoning.

Yum!

I GOT THE JOB!

JUST GOT THE CALL AND I 100% START MONDAY!

I just had to post a party pic ahah!

So happy I do not need to go to anymore scary, stressful, nerve wracking Interviews! Ahhhh

Oh wait I wanted to mention that this was the job that called me a couple weeks ago saying I did not get the job! They called me this week saying they made a mistake :) and now I start Monday! whoohoo

Shhh Good news!

(Zoe looks at me like I'm crazy when she knows not to sit on the counter!)

Shhh, I have semi-good news!! I'm 98% sure that I got the job! AND I will start MONDAY! EEEE Paper work has not been signed yet so that's why it's not 100% yet. So keeping it on the down for a bit. However I spoke to them over the phone and Monday will be my start date. I'm excited and nervous and shocked and sooo many emotions. I really really do not want to think too far into to it. I know for sure that things will change and It will be different since I've been home calling my own shots for 1 year and 1 month ;). I am looking forward to the new schedule and to see how that works out. I will be blogging and working on my online company in the evenings instead of during the day. Organization will be key to my successful days ;)

So last night I was way to jittery to make dinner (Ha! I have any excuse) So husband took me for Sushi! Yum!

They gave us edamame on the house! :)


Best news for last! I'm up to 50 followers! How exciting is that!!!! Thank you for reading my blog! I love reading yours tooo!

Monday Weigh in

MMM On Sunday, husband and I went for lunch at the in-laws for my brother in laws 21st birthday. For lunch we had Tacito's! Yum. They were so delicious, high in Cals...? Maybe, maybe not haha!. But delicious!

Today's weigh in remains the same. I'm watching my calorie intake today and heading out for a jog soon ;) Good start to the week!

I followed last weeks goals pretty well and I'm very proud of that. I'm still keeping the same goals up just to ensure I have another successful week! :)

My goals for the week are the following:
1. NO FAST FOOD!!!
2. Healthy home cooking all week. :)
3. Limit sweets
4. Limit carbs at dinner
5. Drink plenty of water / Green Tea
6. 3 days a week Jogging
7. 2-3 days 10000 steps on pedometer :)

Job news: The interview I had tomorrow was cancelled, :( I was really excited for it but the company decided to wait untill the new year for hiring! HOWEVER! I got a call from a previous job interview I went to a couple weeks back and it's looking pretty good, but for now I will not put all my eggs in one basket as that did not turn out well for me in the past. Cross your fingers for mee! :)

My Goals for the week

Yesterday I went grocery shopping and bought lots of healthy food. Fruit, Veggies, Meat, fish :) and no sweets! If they are outta sight they are outta mind! Well maybe not outta mind ahah!

I also bought yogurt with granola to try for snacks this week. They look good :)

I also bought some of these organic burritos. I tried these before and I saw another blogger friend write about them a couple weeks ago so I decided to buy them again. They are really good! Filled with veggies and black beans. Yum!




My goals for the week are the following:
1. NO FAST FOOD!!!
This weekend I ate out more than I would have liked to, and I feel really bad about it and do not want to do my weigh in today so I will do it Wednesday.
2. Healthy home cooking all week. :)
3. Limit sweets
4. Limit carbs at dinner
5. Drink plenty of water / Green Tea
6. 3 days a week Jogging
7. 2-3 days 10000 steps on pedometer :)

I think I can handle this!

Now on to not so fun news. The 2 job interview I went to last week that I was so excited for and thought for sure I would get.... Well, I didn't. I really do not know what is going on here. I'm working my butt off looking for a job, trying my best in interviews and I'm not getting any of these jobs... heck I didn't even get that entry job one with the company I worked with before. Like really, somethings gotta give! So lets just say I'm more frustrated than usual. But, I'll keep going and trying and hopefully something comes along.

At least it's a gorgeous Fall Monday with the sun shining and the leaves so colorful, ahhh I like that.

A cold Thursday!

Burrr is all I can say! Boy is it cold today. I just turned up the heat to 22C my fingers and toes were starting to freeze! Hopefully I did it right, I hear some strange noises from the furnace eee!

I woke up today extremely tired. We came home late last night from watching soccer games. Thanks to the USA soccer team for tying the game with Costa Rica, Honduras (where husbands family is from will now be in the World Cup!) The first time since 1982!! Actually In 1982 I was just 1 year old and Italy had won the world cup, see pic below with my dad and brother and my grandpa in the back round :)



I just came back from grabbing a coffee, a much needed coffee to keep me awake while I prepare for another interview tomorrow. I think I am very close to getting this job...but I'm trying not to think too far in the future because that gives me the jitters so I can only think about today and up to tomorrows interview. :) (painting my nails too for the interview, trying not to show my nervous nail biting evidence) ahah!




Yesterday I was only able to get 5000 on the pedometer, not good. Today I'm going for a jog when husband gets back from work. I got my mittens and hat ready to be warm ahah! It's not even winter yet!

Hope you are having a good Thursday! :)

Leaves are turning colors...

Fall is here and the leaves are turning colors and starting to fall to the ground. It rained the past couple days and this morning I woke up so cold my nose, hands and feet were frozen! Weather right now is 12 C (53.6F) I will not be surprised if we get snow in early November this year.

On this day last year I got laid off from my job. My vision last year was much different than it is today. Hahah Cause I'm looking for work instead of enjoying being self employed! But, My blog is "Growing Towards a Dream" and that is what I will continue to do. Over the year I did increase our monthly amounts and gained many new customers. I also had a chance to blog and meet amazing new blogger friends ;) My goals will still continue. Husband and I have short term goals and Long term goals and we will keep at them ;) No matter what life throws at us. Life does throw curve balls huh... I once read that God throws these curve balls to see how badly you want something. So I will make sure that our goals continue to be acheived no matter what trys to get in the way. We have a 24 hour day and a lot can be done one day at a time ;)



Past couple weeks I've been feeling really down, as I mentioned before I never had an issue with with finding a job. It was never an issue I had to deal with so I find this experience extremely new. The feelings are overwhelming at times and husband reminds me that it is a recession and I am not the only one feeling this way. I guess you can say the "Ego" really gets damaged during these types of scenarios, when I always made X amount and jobs out there are paying much less than X or require much more experience which was never the case before. Damn you Economy Damn you LOL. I took a Business Analyst course over the weekend and met a lot of people in the IT world, many of them are unemployed and looking as well. It is funny here in Canada because the news continues to say the recession is over and throws out these numbers as if all is ok. I guess they do not want to scare people but just from a group of people I know I can count at least 10 people looking for a job right now.

I hope all of us can find something in the next couple of months because as soon as December hits companies do not hire until after the new year.

Trying to stay positive and I will continue to work hard in all areas of my life!!! So take that curve balls! :)

(Drinking a large coffee and getting to work!)

Did I mention - I hate looking for work...Pt 2

Thanks for the support blogger friends ;) It's hard to ignore these feelings, they are overwhelming! I've had other issues in my life before but working has never been it. From the last job I had I was at the point of building that "career" or at least on the path to. I never had an issue finding a job and I always moved jobs the minute I felt I needed change and it worked well for me until I was laid off. When I was laid off it was bitter sweet. At the time husband and I had big dreams of moving to San Diego and experiencing different living, I took time to work on our online business and helped it grow alot over the year. But of course life takes over and we did move, but to suburbia and here I am today looking once again for that career. With the job market so crummy it makes things much much worse!

Well to relieve some stress I'm going out for sushi tonight with a friend ;) Ah leave it to food to put a smile on my face. Yesterday I made my favorite dish Thai Coconut Curry Shrimp. I love it, husband doesn't like my cooking too much but I think the dish came out perfectly tasty.

I did not do a Hump day update today since I am still working on the lunch soup diet, I will just do a weigh in on Monday, and hoping for some results ;)

My body is extremely sore from riding with the husband last night on his motorcycle. I think it's only my third time on it, I held on so tight I'm sore from my neck to ankles ahah.

Did I mention - I hate looking for work...

Almost October and no job yet. I'm having one of those days, I'm just fed up! I'll be honest, I am really really hating this job stuff! Thanks to looking for a job I feel my summer was sacrificed with no reward and now Fall has started and I'm pretty much at square one. My days feel more and more depressing. I feel that my daily job hunting is wasting my life away, my days have no meaning, no point almost. Just day in and day out of looking for a job, going to depressing interviews at places I do not even want to work at and then it gets repeated all over again. Thank goodness for my blog that helps keep me sane! I'm usually a upbeat person but the weeks have been flying by and I feel the drain more and more each day! I never thought looking for work would be so hard nor did I ever think it would drain me as it is...

Some better news, I worked out really hard yesterday and now my legs are in so much pain and wobbly ahah a good sign. I'll do it again today. At least this is one part of my life I have control of, somewhat... :)

Thursday ups and downs.

Finally Friday (well soon enough)! And Finally our long awaited trip is here! I think Zoe has been sensing we are leaving, maybe the smell of the luggage's remind her of the previous trips. She is all over me wanting to be pet and cuddled, making it even more heartbreaking. I really hope she is ok in the pet hotel and really hope she behaves so they love her and give her lots of attention! I hope I hope!!!! Zoe will be taking some things with her on her stress-cation haahha. Some items to remind her of home. One of her flower toys that she carries up and down the stairs all the time and a new scarf that she started playing with. I wonder if I should add a piece of my clothing too... Ok sounds creepy i know, I won't do that. Husband already thinks I'm cat crazy. Not just any cat crazy tho, just for my Zoe :)



Job stuff: So today's interview went well! BUT I did forget to ask some very important questions, like ummm.... Salary? However, from the description of the job at the interview, I'm not sure it would be a good fit for me at all...not that I got the job yet anyway so no point worrying about that! I am feeling more and more confident as each interview goes by, i'll be a pro in no time! :) Practice does make perfect!

Exercise: I went for my jog today and it felt great! Until I noticed the painful blisters on the back of my feet! nice huh just before my trip. Hope they heal quick! :( It seems that lately I've been so fragile and I am not liking this... Last weekend I had an allergic reaction to something that swelled my lips and caused canker sores in my mouth, then I had an little rash on my ring finger that prevented me from wearing my wedding rings all week, now my blisters, and not to mention my tummy aches and headaches from interview stress....GRR to stress!!

I can not believe how stress effects our bodies so much! Could all these symptoms be some sort of reaction to stress? Does stress give you any crazy symptoms?

Have a great (stress free) weekend everyone! :)

My interview went well!

One more week and I'll get to be on the beach! Clearing my mind from all this job stuff! This Job stuff is really taking over my life! Well I guess it should until I actually get one huh, ahaha.

This morning I had my interview and thank goodness it went well! Before I went in, I reviewed all my notes (memorization is key for me, but really hasn't been working to my liking these days)
I went in and my heart was thumping so hard I could hear it! I was nervous at the beginning but slowly calmed myself down, which was sorta hard when I had the nervous voice in my head saying, "you don't know your stuff, you're going to stutter, he can see right thru you, bad stuff, bad stuff, run, RUN" (LOL) against the calming voice of "you know your stuff, you prepared enough, take it all in as more experience, you are doing well, don't worry, all is going fine" Calm voice won the match today and I was able to speak, smile, laugh and answer all questions without hesitation whew! (TAKE THAT NERVOUS VOICE!)

On FB Last night my aunt wrote on her status;

When life hands you lemons; squirt them in peoples eyes

Somehow this phrase makes me feel strong ahhaa, not that I would ever do that, but it gave me a different way of looking at things, with a sorta "Whatever" attitude.

I remember a phrase in one of the books I love (my soul just opened up) She says, don't let the wind rattle your core... I should really take that advice, since a lot of this stress has been totally rattling my core! I feel as I'm getting older I'm not as brave as I use to be, I remember kicking butt and taking names when I was in my early 20's, no one could stop me then. I was feistier, nothing scared me, I didn't care if people liked me or not, I just went for what I wanted and got it!. So not sure what is up these days! Hmm I need to tap back into that!

BUT! On a super good note! The Weekend is finally here! I have my sisters birthday and a friends wedding as well, Fun, Fun, Fun!! That is all I'm looking forward to right now! (oh and the beach next week, heehee)

Hump Day Update

Tuesday's afternoon walk plus a walk through the mall in the evening added up to 10514 steps on the pedometer! One of my weekly goals includes 2, 10000 steps so I have 1 more to go. The reason I have only 2, is because steps are done by walking only, the other days I jog, I do not wear the pedometer.

So far my mid week goals are going pretty well. I'm cooking at home, I'm working out, drinking lots of water and green tea. So I'm excited to see some results already!!!

As for my job hunt, it is going just ok. I have an interview with an agency on Friday and a potential interview next week with a company. Looking for a job is one of the most stressful areas in my life, I guess it is because I have a love hate relationship with working. I hate the 9-5 no offense, but I can remember how much I dreaded going into work everyday in my past. Yet the bills need to get paid and shopping needs to be done :) So the getting paid part is the good thing ahah! Ahhh just trying to help myself go into everything with ease this time around. Vaca is in 11 days and boy am I looking forward to laying on the beach with a good book!.

What are your love hate comments of working the 9-5?

Thanks everyone for visiting my blog today :) I found more blogger friends online today and I'm looking forward to reading all your fun interesting blogs!